Busy, that is. I really hate people telling me I am. I hate it almost as much as people who say things like "you do everything don't you" or " is there anything you are not involved with?" To answer that, yes, quite a few things, like sports for example.
I am busy, but I am happy and I can almost always make time for friends in need, it is quite rare that I'm unable to. I certainly do not expect anyone to be me, honestly, I could not figure out why they would want to. Therefore, I do not expect other moms to do anymore than they want/feel is necessary. Necessary is a key word here, it sums up my motivation for most things.
Most of what I do I did not decide to do, frankly. I was not forced either, but it became necessary. I teach NFP because there was no one else doing it in my area at the time, and though there are others who might be better at it, I had the knowledge and willingness. I also felt like God was asking me to share what I knew with others to help them get to heaven. The same can be said for 99% of the activities in my life.
I do not know why God has asked me to keep myself so busy, but I do function better that way, and knowing that sacrificing the sheer joy of sitting on my behind helps others sometimes, makes it worth it. So please, if you know me, I'll say I'm busy, just to vent and because it is infinitely easier than explaining everything going on, but do not throw it back at me. I'm easily hurt, and feel guilty that I do many things outside my home that I wouldn't be able to do if I had more kids, or a bigger home or a type B personality, I envy those of you who are able to look around your homes happily and not feel draw to escape, but that is not me, sorry.
3 comments:
Debbie- I know this post is old, but still, I'm sorry your feelings were hurt (not sure by whom), but still - you are so important to so many people. And you give so generously of your time and resources! When I read your line about being busy, but always able to make time for a friend in need, I remembered back fondly to the delicious soup you brought (all the way from Naperville!!) after Mary was born.
I love you!
Hmm, Did a certain Latina bird tip you off that I'm having a craptastic day? If not, you have the best timing in the universe! Either way, I really appreciate your kind words. I'm at a loss as to what else to say, and strangely, I guess me being quiet lately is a problem for some.
I heard the same comments all weekend as I was working to co-ordinate the teen servers at my oldest son's high school madrigals dinners - women kept telling me "I don't know how you do it!" I think it just scares them (or makes them feel guilty) that I just put my baby in a sling and do the things I want to do (volunteer or otherwise)! Yes I am busy too, with the things I want to/need to do! There are many things I don't do that they don't see (i.e. the huge dust bunnies under the beds at my house) but as I get older I get much better at being as busy as I want to be by doing what I love and ditching the rest! You go girl!
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