Taking steps backwards, Since 1998

I came across this article via Mark Shea's blog. While I find it respectful of Fr. McBrien to defend the honor of a reporter, he should consider ways to do it without losing his own, not that he had much to begin with.


I spend my pre-dawn Saturday mornings here. Why? Certainly not because I love getting up at 4am! I do it because, in my great selfishness, I need to. I need to grow in love. I need to find a time to forget myself, my desire for sleep, or a shower before work, time to sit in in the glow of my Lord. I do not do it to "bring back the old days" because I wasn't born then! Fr. McBrien's theory that adoration is to bring back the old is silly, in my opinion. I know more young modern people that go to adoration than those his age.



I think we do it because we have to. Not just for ourselves, but for our church that he and his generation, my parents, spent the last 40 years trying "renew", only to throw out everything old without regard for its value. I'm not anti-Vatican II, quite the contrary to be honest, but we cannot disregard the 2000 years of beauty and devotions for a few passing fancies.



I go to adoration every week, happily, proudly and willingly. I do not know how I'd get through the week without it, so for now, I guess I'm walking backwards.

Interesting observation

Today while we were driving home, my daughter made an observation. She noticed the car next to us had a dream catcher, her comment "Hmm, not really the best place for that, is it?" Good point. To all those of you who have dream catchers hanging from your rear-view mirrors, please, refrain from using it while driving!

I already know I am, but thanks for letting me know.

Busy, that is. I really hate people telling me I am. I hate it almost as much as people who say things like "you do everything don't you" or " is there anything you are not involved with?" To answer that, yes, quite a few things, like sports for example.

I am busy, but I am happy and I can almost always make time for friends in need, it is quite rare that I'm unable to. I certainly do not expect anyone to be me, honestly, I could not figure out why they would want to. Therefore, I do not expect other moms to do anymore than they want/feel is necessary. Necessary is a key word here, it sums up my motivation for most things.

Most of what I do I did not decide to do, frankly. I was not forced either, but it became necessary. I teach NFP because there was no one else doing it in my area at the time, and though there are others who might be better at it, I had the knowledge and willingness. I also felt like God was asking me to share what I knew with others to help them get to heaven. The same can be said for 99% of the activities in my life.

I do not know why God has asked me to keep myself so busy, but I do function better that way, and knowing that sacrificing the sheer joy of sitting on my behind helps others sometimes, makes it worth it. So please, if you know me, I'll say I'm busy, just to vent and because it is infinitely easier than explaining everything going on, but do not throw it back at me. I'm easily hurt, and feel guilty that I do many things outside my home that I wouldn't be able to do if I had more kids, or a bigger home or a type B personality, I envy those of you who are able to look around your homes happily and not feel draw to escape, but that is not me, sorry.